Deep In Earth

i received a phone call about 3 days ago, on Saturday, telling me that i was to go to an interview. i wasn't really sure what interview it was, but the lady said that she was giving me an opportunity to go to university and further my studies. she said it was a UK-based program and told me to go to this mara office on the 27th. i was excited at first, i got a chance to further my studies and such. i even practiced and prepared answers. so i went there at 11 a.m. like she informed me, and in the end it wasn't an interview at all. she was actually persuading me, or promoting, to go to this private university (Linton University). the facilities and conditions were good, and i would even receive this 90% loan or something, like the university will give me the loan to study there. i felt a bit discouraged, since it was a private university. she didn't give me any other options to choose another university, and besides, the university did not offer the course that i planned ...

Love in Theory and Practice. everyone has their own taste in everything. and i think this album is brilliant no matter what the others say. i hope you guys won't take it so hard, because it's not your fault that they couldn't feel your hearts and words, and understand the music, like i was able to. a lot of people say that it's so different to the genre that it is no longer original or something.. like it turned into pop rock and they weren't a fan. love metal or not, pop rock or not, it was brilliant, it sounded beautiful, and i feel the melodies. some people couldn't understand it at all. well, that spells unique and original to me. again, it's brilliant no matter what the others say. no matter what. i find that every detail in the songs beautiful. i really hope you guys would remain as a band because rumours are scary, and i could only pray they really are false rumours. i couldn't even think of the unthinkable, for you guys are one of the fundam...

the other day, i saw the music video for Iris by Goo Goo Dolls. it revived my love for it, it reminded me on how obsessed i was with it and shame on me because i haven't been listening to it for a really long time. well, i wasted no time and fell in love with it again. the song is timeless i tell you. beautiful. you bleed just to know you're alive? and i'm listening to their album Let Love In. yeah i know it's a rather old album, about 5 years ago, but i'm liking what i'm hearing. :) loving.

i love nature and i love trees. i love open fields and i love the sun, so long as it is not too hot. i love open skies, the night, the day, the stars, the moon, the clouds, the mists, and the rain. i love emotions and feelings. i love words and word-play. when i listen to certain songs, i get this certain vision of these things. or the feel of these things. the same things you'll feel about these kind of things. maybe it's because it's European music, or more specifically Scandinavian music, or even more specific, Finnish music. :D obviously, music can give you one of the best word-plays. like some of my recent favourites: 'i hid the keys to unlock love's heart', or 'turn to page 43, and you'll know how i feel' or 'to cry is to know that you're alive' or 'a deserted soul is gone', or 'lift the lid of your heart's casket in the arms of rain' or a gazillion more... :P sounds familiar? i don't know if these can...

i want to sew really bad. i'm itching to sew something! I NEED TO SEW!!! please school let me sew.......

if there were regrets in taking this path, i think that most of them are gone. i'm feeling really good at the moment. really good. just about a week ago, maybe two weeks, i was feeling really down and gloomy and all i wanted to do was abandon everything. i was having a hard time coping with almost everything, my attention was wild and untamed, and laziness quickly infected me like an epidemic. i was unhappy with myself at the time. but now i think i have recovered, even just a little bit. i'm focusing on my studies and homework again, and i'm able to balance fun and food and work and solitude and music at the same time. :) so i'm really happy right now. i just want to live through this moment before the next tide comes. walking in the rain from school today made me really positive, though it was cold and i'm at risk of being sick. the rain always wash everything away. lift the lid of your heart's casket in the arms of rain.

Last night of sadness It was clear that we couldn't go on The doors opened and the wind appeared The candles blew and then disappeared The curtains flew and then he appeared Saying don't be afraid