Deep In Earth

I listen to a lot of bands and sometimes I would take "hiatuses" with some bands. And that's pretty normal. Sometimes a band would get me interested but then I won't listen to them anymore. Sometimes I'd appreciate a band but don't really get into their music. Sometimes I'd listen to a band, leave them for a while as I listen to other bands, then get back to listening to them again. But sometimes, I'd stick with a band no matter what. No matter if I left them for a period to get my variety needs and listen to other bands, I would always go back to this band. This band who gets me. The music and the message that this band, Dir En Grey convey fit me well. In the past, I've listened to some bands thinking that 'this is it'. But I was totally wrong. When I got into Dir en Grey, I delved deeper into them, I realized that they are the only ones who get me, either musically for emotionally. Now, before anyone accuses me of being a pervert ...

It feels so vexing, when a person such as myself, haven't been creative for a long time. I keep getting these urges to do creative things, such as writing, painting, playing music... But I couldn't really invest myself in those pursuits, just because I am busy doing other things such as my internship and housework. I feel sad and useless sometimes, when I can't release my want to be creative. And it's not anybody's fault really. It's me, because I couldn't really get so much stuff done in one day. However, this gets to me so much, more than it needs to because nowadays, I am doing pointless things that don't even mean anything to me. I'm talking about office work. It's fun to do sometimes and I am enjoying it. But to an extent, I feel like it's pointless. I'm not alive so I can do those pointless stuff. I feel like I am wasting time away by doing all these insignificant things, while I could be doing real meaningful stuff to me, lik...

Hi. The previous post stated how much I was feeling like doing art. I still feel that way. And those feelings have really built up. You know how people have a creative block that happens sometimes? No doubt that thing happens to me sometimes. But right now it feels like I'm having a creative overflow. I feel like creating so much stuff like drawing and painting, and now I am inspired to continue writing. I like to write stories. Sometimes I get these ideas and when the ideas are well-made and flows freely, I can little short stories. Nothing big, but I enjoy it. Mainly because it's my taste (because I wrote it...). These days I'm getting some ideas to write some short stories. It's like, the concepts are in my mind, the themes and some events that will happen, but the full chronologies aren't organized yet. Some of them doesn't exist yet. Just having these little ideas. I really need to write some notes down because sometimes ideas for different stories co...

It's a rainy day today. I'm thankful for that because the days have been pretty hot. I needed to write about art. Since I was a kid, I love to draw and I wanted to be a painter. I love art. You know sometimes in school teachers will give you cards to fill in your details and write down your dream occupation? I wrote that I wanted to be a painter. One day my teacher calls me over and asked about it. I said I really liked to draw and I remember I was very shy about it. I wasn't any good at art actually but I love drawing a lot. My teacher told me about something like the future needs engineers and doctors and that I should think about my dream occupation. When I didn't the teacher encouraged me again to change it. If I remember correctly, she basically told me to write it over. Change it. So I did and I wrote down 'veterinarian'. Everyone seemed pleased. My parents had hopes for me to become a vet. In high school I was in science stream and studied biology...