Deep In Earth

I'm having a blast listening to Diru tonight. I'm reminded time and time again how amazing this band is. The whole band. The members are close to being miracles on earth for their amazing abilities and creativity. It blows my mind away. And one of the reasons why they are so awesome and precious is the way they are able to express their emotions and feelings through their songs. A guitar phrase, a drum phrase, a bass phrase, a vocal phrase, all these phrases that all these instruments make just somehow create such a sound and emotion that picks at my heart-strings. I started my playlist with Kasumi and now the blues have surfaced. By the time I got to Ranunculus, my tears just flowed out without me having to try. It's that kind of night again. Which is why I am listening to Dir en Grey.

It's a tearful kind of night tonight. I've been spending the day playing computer games and watching Dir en Grey videos. Now I've got the "konpeki no umi". Then made a playlist of my melancholic songs that would suit my mood right now. Somehow got Zakuro into the list, played it, gave up in the first 10 seconds. No, I'm not ready for that. Got Jealous-reverse- and Kasumi, and somehow it's making me sadder. I didn't cry, but my eyes got watery. My heart feels weak and tired. I tried my best today, as well as these last couple of days. Maybe I should release it all now.

When I'm listening to music, I take certain breaks at a time. I start to get an itch for something else and listen to that for a while, and then I get another itch and listen back to the band that I was listening to a couple of months ago. So I haven't been listening to MCR for quite some time, because I had the itch to listen to other music from other bands. So one day I was going out with my sisters when I hear the G note being played in the local radio station in the moving car. It became silent in the car for a while until the opening words came in.. "When I was, a young boy.." I gasped and turned to my sister on my left, and she began to sing; "..my father, took me into the city.." and I was like a mess inside. I proceeded to tell my sister about Gerard's comic and how it was being turned into a show on Netflix. I didn't realize that I missed the band so much, even though I did. I was silent and listening to the G note and the following pian...

I've been thinking about this lately. Thinking about the things that I love very deeply... It would absolutely crush me to have it taken away. Please, do not ever go away. Please be here for always and never end. It would crush me. It would crush me. I would break. So please don't ever end. Don't ever leave us. Promise us this.

I've been spending a lot of time reminiscing about the past, and by that, I mean about Dir en Grey. Kyo's screams are the best then and now. I really miss the cute Kyo back when they first started. It baffles me how cute he was. Then when they went on Europe and American tours, things started to get pretty tough on them. Kyo turned to express himself more. I have to say, I don't miss the days when he self-harmed on stage. I'm glad those days are gone (almost...) but I do miss their intensity and the pain that I could hear in that voice. I could tell the frustrations that they were having, the pain and the difficulties, and it translated into a penetrating voice which Kyo would scream out to the audience. I think those times of trial and pain pushed them further with their performance, resulting in an emotional performance each time. I cherish those days but I'm sure as happy they are pass. I miss to hear the pain in that voice but I'm also glad the pain of tho...

I listen to a lot of bands and sometimes I would take "hiatuses" with some bands. And that's pretty normal. Sometimes a band would get me interested but then I won't listen to them anymore. Sometimes I'd appreciate a band but don't really get into their music. Sometimes I'd listen to a band, leave them for a while as I listen to other bands, then get back to listening to them again. But sometimes, I'd stick with a band no matter what. No matter if I left them for a period to get my variety needs and listen to other bands, I would always go back to this band. This band who gets me. The music and the message that this band, Dir En Grey convey fit me well. In the past, I've listened to some bands thinking that 'this is it'. But I was totally wrong. When I got into Dir en Grey, I delved deeper into them, I realized that they are the only ones who get me, either musically for emotionally. Now, before anyone accuses me of being a pervert ...

Hey. I feel a need to express how much I love this person named Sid Wilson. When I first got into Slipknot, I didn't want to be hyped up because everyone else was so into them. So being the person I am, I don't want to like what everyone else liked. I don't know why, it just seemed really repelling to be with the trends. I don't know, that's just me. I was already very fond of this dude named Sid who stage dives and jumps off of high places. His parts in the music and how he performs them on stage was very cool to me too. I thought that his mask looked the coolest, plus the fact that I really have a fascination with gas masks. But I was like, "Hold up... I won't get into it..." But as time goes by, I just have to accept it at this point. I can't deny it any longer, you know? To be honest, I am not really interested in his hip hop or jungle music. It's not the kind of music that I am into. I just can't get into it. But Sid as a person, t...

I am a product for the music I listen to. Music helped me a lot in those times when I can't express myself. Music is a part of me and no one can change that fact. Growing up in the 90s and 2000s has really exposed me to an amazing array of punk rock bands that I love and had shaped me to be who I am today. As you can guess, I love punk rock. Those bands mean a lot to me, those songs resonates as part of my childhood that people don't even know. Punk rock has a tendency to address issues that people don't see, or people don't concern, but important nonetheless. I love punk rock and punk rock is me.

I've been into goth, post punk, cold wave, slow wave, and all the genres related. I found this gem a while ago. I found it again when I went on a tumblr blog. It played this song, and I have to say, i remembered it and decided to invest myself in it. Cigarettes After Sex is a good band name. It's catchy and attractive. But I'd like to highlight their music. It appears to be ambient pop, dream pop, slow wave, other pop, or something like that. For me, I don't really like anything pop, except maybe Lana Del Rey. Maybe I'd like something, but I won't get in to deep or it doesn't catch on with me. It's very likely I'll ignore it quickly. But this song really got me invested. It's a cover from REO Speedwagon. To describe this song..... It's perfect for night-time music listening. It goes deep in the stomach and goes deep in the heart. It resonates in my head and it's emotionally triggering. I'd like to slow dance in this song. I might be...

So this is the band I just discovered. It's awesome! No singing, no lyrics, but I feel it just the same. One of my favourite post-rock indie bands to date. This is his song, The Way Home.

In a few weeks, it will be Die's birthday. This end of the year has become a bit melancholic for me. It's reaching the end of a semester and my finals are coming up. I have been procrastinating some things but I promise I will get them done. I still have some time left. For the past few days, I had sat on my bed in the dark in my dorm room and I was thinking about a lot of things. I am already 23 years old, still struggling to finish my degree, still haven't traveled to Japan, still have no children, still afraid of dealing with the public. I still haven't gotten that home I wanted, still no job, still no money, still not having any kids. It was a pretty tough time for me. See, this blog is a way for me to express myself because I don't talk to people about things like this. Writing them is the only way I can get it out of my system. I don't expect people will read about this blog, or even care about it. I just needed somewhere to write and let it out. I...

I am going to jump right to it. Gerard posted a selfie on Instagram and I got really emotional. I love him and the band a lot and I think I needed to write this stuff somewhere to somehow get it off my chest. Hopefully, this post is going to be honest. I have been a fan of MCR since I was a teenager perhaps 13 to 12 years ago. When I discovered them, I wasn't really a music fan as I am now, but as some time went by they became one of my most important bands. Helena was the first song I heard from them as I was instantly hooked. I needed their sound in my life, if that makes any sense. I thought that Gerard was a little crazy, but his craziness was something I needed and adored. They were different but confident in who they truly are. In some way, and I can say this with truth and confidence, Gerard Way is a genius and combined with Ray Toro, another genius, Frank and Mikey, talented prodigies, and may I include Matt, I thought they were what we needed. They were a great driving f...

It's already in the middle of August. My vacation from school is almost over, so I feel kind of sad about it. But the reason why I am posting today is about something different. You know those bouts of depression that we feel some time? I have them almost every month. I don't know if they are caused by hormones or if there is a scientific/biological explanation to me experiencing this every month, but it does happen frequently. At times like this, I feel like I should share my feelings and burdens to someone, but I do not trust anyone with my feelings. But keeping it inside is unhealthy, so I usually write my feelings down, once I do happen to successfully figure them out. I'll leave something to show you how I feel.

Lately I've been staying up late the whole night and going to bed when the sun rises from the East. My parents advised me that this bad habit will cost me my health, but really, I feel at peace during the wee hours of the morning. Nobody is there and I can do whatever I want. Everything is quiet and peaceful, even the animals are sleeping soundly outside. So, I particularly like to stay up late at night. But you know, beauty sleep is crucial for a girl, and sometimes I think about this too. Like, will it affect my looks if I keep doing this everyday? In 2 days I will be going back to university. I feel really sluggish. I don't want to go back. I don't want to do something I don't want to. Please don't force me. Well tonight I want to write my feelings about Diru. When I became interested in Japanese rock music, I started to get to know Diru (and love listening to Yokan), as well as Laruku, D'espa, Gazette and all those visual kei bands. The ones I listed he...

Today I am going to share some music that I have been enjoying at the moment. I am beginning to fawn over indie folk pop songs. They seem so cute and heartfelt. Simple composition yet relatable. OF MONSTERS AND MEN - LOVE LOVE LOVE PASSENGER - LET HER GO

Alright. So Natsume Yuujinchou is a pretty famous anime, right? I've watched it before, but this is the first time I've listened to the original soundtracks. I have to say, I'm very impressed even though it is unlike Mushishi's ost which I love and adore very much, it has the same potential and has similar feelings, although only in some of the songs, for example 'Kusa Odoru Kaze no Hibiki' and 'Honoka no Kioku'. It is an anime after all. Mushishi is a really beautiful anime, while I feel Natsume Yuujinchou is rather like the conventional anime, but shows similar uniqueness and beauty as well. It has sad times and heart-felt times like that in Mushishi. But the thing is, Mushishi doesn't really make an effort, or make it seem that way. It shows things simply as it is and I cry because it's just so sad. I think this separates Mushishi from other animes as well. The soundtrack composed by Yoshimori Makoto is exceptional. I fell in love instantly wh...

I mostly enjoy rock or metal music but I really enjoy some classical pieces just as much. Today I accidentally came across this video while browsing in Youtube and I am in awe. Manly tears were shed and I do not know why. I was touched by the beautiful music. I love the movie Inception. Some of my friends could not understand it but I think it is perfect. The exploration of the concept of being in a dream inside a dream was clever. Utter brilliance. I remember the music touched me very deeply while watching it. And there was another movie that people could not really understand, it was called "The Fountain". It had beautiful soundtracks as well. So beautiful. The concept of the Tree of Life was rather intriguing. I always read about foreign myths and old legends. These old stories passed from generation to generation interest me acutely. Do watch these great movies. They are some of my favourites. I absolutely adore music like this, it makes me feel alive and have faith.

I have listened to a lot of bands. I am particularly attracted to bands that have their own original sound. Like, I've never heard another band make songs like they do - that kind of thought. I have listened and listened, and I developed an opinion that most drummers have regular skills. It's like they are good enough to be a drummer, and so they are. I feel like the songs are good because of the melody, the guitar riffs, the vocals from the vocalist. And the drummer is there just to add the beats to the song. He contributes, but it feels like he is nothing special. I know it is not true for most people, but sometimes, I feel this way. However, when it comes to Shinya, I feel like I have never heard a more talented drummer than him. He is not a drummer simply because he is good enough. He is a drummer because he was destined to be one. Whoever convinced him to take the path of being a drummer must be a saint. Shinya's drumming skills are superb. The sounds he makes are ...

Letter. Music can be so poetic and beautiful. When I listen to this song I think I see a beautiful array of soft colours. So soft and perfect and kind.

I was finally able to watch a live video of VAMPS in Zepp Namba from last year's tour. Whenever I see their lives and listen to their songs, I start to think, no matter how many crushes I have and no matter how many boys I think are good looking and ideal, Hyde-sama is really the best. I have complete respect and adoration for what he has done. The final in Zepp Namba was really wonderful, it was so great! There was also news of Jrock Revolution coming to my country this year. I don't know when but when I read about it I kept thinking, of all those years wishing for something like this to happen, it is finally happening.... Then I had tears in my eyes. It really is good news. Now let's just wish they hold the live in a stadium instead of a club, or I wouldn't be able to go. Today, I read about an old Japanese superstition that the first dream in the new year will come true. Seriously, a big 'oh my God' came out of my mouth. It's not that I believe in sup...