Deep In Earth

After a lot of hassle about finding a place for me to stay, I've finally been able to live in my previous dorm. I have officially live here for 4 years. Alhamdulillah, now I have a nice place to stay. Today I was reminded about a certain story or statement that my lecturer of International Relations told me and the entire class. She told us a story about now a student taking HRD in our uni was furthering her master's degree in resource sciences. She told us that the student was confused. She said that the student should have taken a master's degree in something related to her degree. Listening to this, I have to say that I disagree. Well. Perhaps what she is saying is true. It is arguably more reasonable to further your master's degree with an area that you are already familiar with and have basic to moderate level of knowledge in the field. Taking a completely different subject would only mean suicide and burdening yourself. Who would want to do that, right? I am...

It was a little chilly today and I am thankful for that. I'm glad the chilly weather has crept in. You know how we like to tell people about our feelings? How hard that particular day was for us and how hard it was to get through certain times. I think that is okay. But something made me think about it for a little bit. I saw a post saying that back in the day, 18-year-olds enlisted in armies to fight in wars. While today, 18-year-olds are hurt because of the things that people say. I really don't know what to do with this information. My brain is trying to process it and it's triggering something. I agree with the statement, that we should do something positive and give an impact. Do something meaningful with our lives instead of just wallowing in sadness and pity. But on the other hand, I think that accepting that darkness and sadness in our lives are important too. It does get dangerous because it's easier to delve into that sadness and darkness and nurse it an...

Hi. The previous post stated how much I was feeling like doing art. I still feel that way. And those feelings have really built up. You know how people have a creative block that happens sometimes? No doubt that thing happens to me sometimes. But right now it feels like I'm having a creative overflow. I feel like creating so much stuff like drawing and painting, and now I am inspired to continue writing. I like to write stories. Sometimes I get these ideas and when the ideas are well-made and flows freely, I can little short stories. Nothing big, but I enjoy it. Mainly because it's my taste (because I wrote it...). These days I'm getting some ideas to write some short stories. It's like, the concepts are in my mind, the themes and some events that will happen, but the full chronologies aren't organized yet. Some of them doesn't exist yet. Just having these little ideas. I really need to write some notes down because sometimes ideas for different stories co...

It's a rainy day today. I'm thankful for that because the days have been pretty hot. I needed to write about art. Since I was a kid, I love to draw and I wanted to be a painter. I love art. You know sometimes in school teachers will give you cards to fill in your details and write down your dream occupation? I wrote that I wanted to be a painter. One day my teacher calls me over and asked about it. I said I really liked to draw and I remember I was very shy about it. I wasn't any good at art actually but I love drawing a lot. My teacher told me about something like the future needs engineers and doctors and that I should think about my dream occupation. When I didn't the teacher encouraged me again to change it. If I remember correctly, she basically told me to write it over. Change it. So I did and I wrote down 'veterinarian'. Everyone seemed pleased. My parents had hopes for me to become a vet. In high school I was in science stream and studied biology...

I am going to jump right to it. Gerard posted a selfie on Instagram and I got really emotional. I love him and the band a lot and I think I needed to write this stuff somewhere to somehow get it off my chest. Hopefully, this post is going to be honest. I have been a fan of MCR since I was a teenager perhaps 13 to 12 years ago. When I discovered them, I wasn't really a music fan as I am now, but as some time went by they became one of my most important bands. Helena was the first song I heard from them as I was instantly hooked. I needed their sound in my life, if that makes any sense. I thought that Gerard was a little crazy, but his craziness was something I needed and adored. They were different but confident in who they truly are. In some way, and I can say this with truth and confidence, Gerard Way is a genius and combined with Ray Toro, another genius, Frank and Mikey, talented prodigies, and may I include Matt, I thought they were what we needed. They were a great driving f...