Deep In Earth

Is it fine to have such impossible dreams? It might sound pretty nice but will there ever be even a little bit of conformation or indication that you will definitely achieve it? I fear for the future. However, I do not intend to abandon my dreams, even how preposterous it may seem. Just... a little anxious. And I'm fully aware that it will bring me utter despair to have broken dreams. So, I must be careful.

here in my heart memories linger i hold them sacred safe from all others angel's tale you're part of me, we're melting into each other life's mysteries, no - none of it seems to matter i can feel i can feel i can feel

Being in form 6 is hard. Harder than I had imagined. Harder than I expected it to be. I understood that it was a higher level of education - my sis told me that it's one of the hardest exams in the world - but I never thought it would be so hard like this. I have thought, why am I such an idiot to join form 6? It is suicide. I know I am weak, and yet I joined it. Perhaps, I wanted to challenge myself at the time. I wanted to know my limits and what I can do. I am not being conceited, but I know that I can pass, if only I wasn't lazy. Everybody needs the studying mojo to study, and I am lacking it most of the time. I guess being a literature or art student is okay, but being a science student is exceptionally difficult. Especially when you are weak in science subjects, of course. I like biology and got an A for that in spm, but I am defenseless when it comes to math and chemistry. These two subjects are like wars in which I have not enough soldiers or weapons to fight with. I ...

Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear, oh dear. I've watched this movie about this particular forbidden love. How my heart breaks for Riku. He's sort of the villain in all of it, but he's just a lost boy who kept an unrequited love for his friend. All those years, and everything was over when his loved one died. It was painful to see him suffering all by himself, since he never told anyone. Oh, poor Riku! poor Riku! I feel like giving him a big hug so he can cry all that hatred and anger away. He loved his friend so much for so long, but his friend loved someone else and died for someone else. How pitiful. It's nobody's fault, Riku. You don't need to blame it on other people(though I understood why he would). Dear Riku, it's okay to express it. Don't hold it in. It'll be better if you'd let go of the hate and anger.