Deep In Earth

It's already in the middle of August. My vacation from school is almost over, so I feel kind of sad about it. But the reason why I am posting today is about something different. You know those bouts of depression that we feel some time? I have them almost every month. I don't know if they are caused by hormones or if there is a scientific/biological explanation to me experiencing this every month, but it does happen frequently. At times like this, I feel like I should share my feelings and burdens to someone, but I do not trust anyone with my feelings. But keeping it inside is unhealthy, so I usually write my feelings down, once I do happen to successfully figure them out. I'll leave something to show you how I feel.

Do you know what 'ai no kusabi' means? It means 'the space between'. It means the bond between two people. I have finally finished all 8 volumes of Ai no Kusabi the novel. The anime is famous to all anime lovers, especially to shounen-ai enthusiasts, but a lot of people know about the anime. And it brings quite an emotion in them as well. Before I proceed, this will be my view of the anime and novel and there may be spoilers in this entry, so please deal with caution. Watching the anime wasn't enough for me. I wanted to know more, because it seemed that there was more than what it shows on the surface in the anime. Yes, the anime did a wonderful job a telling the story, and it displayed the contents of the novel marvellously. I guess that's one of the reason why I wanted to read the novel myself. Let me tell you, Yoshihara Reiko did a brilliant job on the novel. There are some parts confusing, some parts clear, and some parts would leave you speechless. I tr...

Hello. I checked Saya In Underworld today and read the post about lucid dreaming. It really enlightened me about the fact that I often encounter lucid dreams. I don't remember the contents of most my dreams, but I remember about them being so real. And I've always had false awakening. Sometimes, it even caused me to be angry at some point. Like, "What!? Another dream!?" I've had this experience countless times, ever since I was little. I read this link right here and though people think lucid dreaming and the effects from it are false, I personally believe that there are some relevancies and connection to the effects of lucid dreaming. This is because I have experienced some of them myself. People think that the effects of lucid dreams are caused by the fact that the dreamer has mental disorders or certain illnesses. I don't think I have this problem, of course. ^_^ That's why I believe in lucid dreaming at some extent. I never actually realized th...

Good day. I have been away for a long time. I had a hiatus from blogging for quite a number of months. The reason I was away is because I have school. I am a university student now and I am learning new things and going through a lot of new experiences. I am learning how to do my assignments and try to survive in such an institute. I have semester break right now so I am at home, lying in my cosy bed in my newly refurbished bedroom. I have a bigger bed now. My bookcase is still the same though, no budget for new bookcases. My desk in gone, for I don't think I will particularly need it for any future use. At least not right now, that is. I am studying a programme that I have no certain interest in. I am good in art, if compared to the science field, but I have no exceptional talent or skills in art. If anything, I am just ordinary, if not boring, yet able. I guess. Before I came back for my semester break, I sent in my application to change courses. I applied for Human Resourc...

Lately I've been staying up late the whole night and going to bed when the sun rises from the East. My parents advised me that this bad habit will cost me my health, but really, I feel at peace during the wee hours of the morning. Nobody is there and I can do whatever I want. Everything is quiet and peaceful, even the animals are sleeping soundly outside. So, I particularly like to stay up late at night. But you know, beauty sleep is crucial for a girl, and sometimes I think about this too. Like, will it affect my looks if I keep doing this everyday? In 2 days I will be going back to university. I feel really sluggish. I don't want to go back. I don't want to do something I don't want to. Please don't force me. Well tonight I want to write my feelings about Diru. When I became interested in Japanese rock music, I started to get to know Diru (and love listening to Yokan), as well as Laruku, D'espa, Gazette and all those visual kei bands. The ones I listed he...

I enjoy reading. But one thing I like more than reading is listening to music. But just listening to music is something that I do once in a while, so to balance things out, I play computer games while the music is playing. I do this ALL the time, so most of the books that I read ends up unfinished before I go to the next book. But rest assured, I do my best to finish them. Of course, book that interests me deeply and impacted me greatly will be read enthusiastically to the end. Nowadays, I tend to listen to music before I go to sleep as I lay on my comfortable bed. And I tend to fall asleep while the music is still playing.. all the way until I wake up in the morning (more like afternoon... :P)... I sense that this terrible habit is effecting my ears, since I listen to Diru nowadays. Haha. Now I will tell something completely different. You know I love to read mangas online. If only they were sold freely here in the place where I live, I would buy all the mangas in the world. But a...

Today I am going to share some music that I have been enjoying at the moment. I am beginning to fawn over indie folk pop songs. They seem so cute and heartfelt. Simple composition yet relatable. OF MONSTERS AND MEN - LOVE LOVE LOVE PASSENGER - LET HER GO