Deep In Earth

I shall write about something that I truly cherish and enjoy in this life, and that is music. Please ignore the sheer madness of these words, because I am surely mad enough to write something in this way. What is music to you? I feel music is one of the best things that could ever happen to us in this world. It truly has no boundaries. Have you ever heard a piece of music that sounds so beautiful to your ears that it touches your heart and invades your soul? Do you receive the pleasure that it emits? Have you ever cried listening to music? No words. Just the music, the sounds. I am very, very, very grateful that such brilliant composers exist to give us such wonderful delights. I have fallen in love with their beautiful music, and their talent baffles me. I cannot imagine the things that must be going on in their genius minds. You must think of me as an idiot. To be so touched by mere music that it brings me to tears. Well, I admit that I have been sentimental of late. I lov...

I haven't been very well recently. Right now, I'm typing this entry in bed. I have gastric and stomach pains. It is not fun at all. I cannot eat anything at all. I do not have an appetite for anything. Even if I want to eat something, I just do not have the appetite for it. But I am not suppose to have an empty stomach, so it is not a very good feeling. I feel nauseous and my stomach hurts. Ah. I do complain a lot. But I realize this is one of those tests and hopefully it will make me stronger in the future. Really, I have never had this kind of stomach virus or gastritis or whatever it is to this degree. Sometimes I like being sick, because then I have an excuse to stay in bed all day and read my books under the covers. But I hope I get better soon because it really is painful. I am no masochist and therefore I do not enjoy pain.

Friendship to me is very valuable. Friends are people you like and share things together. You support each other and give opinions. You help each other and love each other for who they are. I love my friends a lot. Today I get to speak with a long time friend. I haven't spoken to her for a while because she's furthering her studies in a far place from where I am. Even though sometimes I can find her somewhat annoying, hehe, but deep down I cherish her a lot. I enjoy being friends with her. We don't really have the same interests but she's the first person I made friends with when I got into secondary school. I like speaking to her. I love her a lot ^^ Sometimes, I'll be honest here, I have doubts in my heart whether or not my friends can be trusted. I mean they are very nice and all, but there are times when I lose my trust in them. However, there are really some that I can trust.  :) And my faith in humanity were restored. For the time being. So I feel ...

Lately, I've been into horror and dark things. I am really interested in all the terror. Horror movies don't really terrify me, but mangas and animes do. :) I think this is a given, since you can do all sorts of things with mangas and animes compared to live action actors. I just cannot find anything new that really terrifies me completely. I've read all Itou Junji's works, and Umezu Kazuo's. I like it a lot when horror mangas are gore with a solid storyline. I dislike it when gore mangas are just gore for the sake of gore. I like it better with a firm storyline, where the gore is necessary for the story. Yes, that's the kind that really pump blood to my cheeks. On another note, I react very loudly to movies and animes and even mangas. By loudly I mean I scream and sigh and curse throughout the story... Most of the times I shout out loud and my sister gets annoyed and angry. Then she would shout back at me to get me to be quiet. But you can never really su...

How bright the world is today, at least at the place where I live. It seems criminal to stay indoors on days like this, but I like to keep the image for as long as I can. Before dawn comes, when the sky is still a little dark and the horizons are beginning to turn grey, I wake up in my dark room. But it is never really dark, for the light of the young dawn lights through my curtains and I can see the dim surroundings. When dawn starts to break, rays of lights gradually hit my thick curtains and my room is basked in pale gold. Still, I keep the curtains closed and still, I lie in bed. This is the perfect moment, the perfect moment to pick up a good book and read it in bed. The light is still dim and grey, but bright enough for you to read the words off the pages of your book. Curled up in bed, underneath the covers, with your feet tucked neatly inside blankets and sheets, better still with a cup of hot tea, is my favourite way to read my books in the morning. But this way will bring...

I have said this before. I always say it. I keep on saying it no matter how many years have passed. Ever since I have discovered this genre, I have been tightly bound to it. Sometimes I may take a break from it for a while to listen to other genres and experience new sound, but I never really part from it for more than a week or even a few days. There's something about it that really mixes well with me. I mean, it really suits me. The problem is most people do not feel the same as I do. I really believe that they think I am somewhat weird. I am sure of it. All those songs, those melodies, those voices, those emotions, those messages, those lyrics, those intricate guitar-riffs.... I love them all. Who cares what people think, right? Just don't listen to them as long as you're happy and you're doing nothing wrong. Really, J-rock is the best. \(>w<)/

This morning, we went travelling down the road to take a visit to my dentist so that the kind man can fix my braces. It was a bright morning. My parents and I were listening to some good music when something horrible happened. It seems that a road accident had occurred. The land cruiser was fine without a scratch, but the other car was in a total wreck. The front part of the car was all smashed. I saw people gathering around the scene to help the people involved in the accident. I saw two kids were laid down on the ground; a girl and a boy. I assumed they were siblings. The father was stuck at the front and was unconscious. There was little blood, so I hope that that's a good sign. We did not stop to help because a lot of people were there already. They already did the necessary steps to do when there is an accident. I was really affected by the sight. I almost cried. Then I recalled a road accident that I witnessed when I was around 8-12 years old. A big lorry had run over a...

Today, my final exams are officially over. Now, I can finally enjoy myself without feeling any guilt. But somehow.... even though this long-awaited day has come, I cannot really decide what to do. There are a lot of things that I want to do before, but now I don't know where to start. It's kind of like that kind of feeling. I guess I'll just try to calm down and relax. I think I'll sleep for as long as I want to. Books of alternate reality and endless fantasy, you just wait for me~ I'll come to you all soon!

Looking through the posts in this little blog, I realized that recently it's been full of such negative thoughts. I am truly sorry for all of this. Looks like the exams really changed the flow of my thoughts for a while. Truthfully, I have not been inspired at all in a few months, well, in a long, long time actually. My final exams really took a toll on me mentally and emotionally. But the exams are almost over. In about 3 days they will be over at last. I am starting to accept the situation more honestly. I believe that I did what I can and God will help me in everything. I think I will have more time for blogs and tumblr soon. I am looking forward to spend days and nights watching animes, reading all those lonely books, sewing stuff, and drawing. All of the things that I have put on hold will finally be done. Restraining my self from all those guilty pleasures really was hard. Anyway, I want to listen to folk indie music again. It has been a while.