Deep In Earth

The weather became much sunnier since yesterday. There was a little shower early this morning. But the temperature has gotten a bit warmer. It's the last day of the year here. I decided to get some studying done. And yes, alhamdulillah I have got some done today. I also decided to watch the Lets Play by Cry on The Cat Lady game. I remembered that it left a huge impression on me at the time Cry played it. I think Cry played it wonderfully, he gave it the weight it deserves. Thank you Cry for playing that game for us. I just finished it, and I remembered the bits of thoughts that I had during the Lets Play that had gotten me more fond of Cry. He's a cool guy. And as I finished it, it still left a pretty big impression on me. I think I needed that kind of impact sometimes. Made me think a lot too. I'll probably post another post after this for midnight since it's the last day of 2016. And I am going to spend it with the people I love most. And that is not sad. That...

So this is the band I just discovered. It's awesome! No singing, no lyrics, but I feel it just the same. One of my favourite post-rock indie bands to date. This is his song, The Way Home.

I am alone in my room right now. My room mate has gone out to study. I am sorry, perhaps I was distracting her with my habits of giggling while watching Youtube. It's a rainy night again. It feels really nice. The air feels cool and chilly. Today, I made some macaroni and cheese with herbs. It's a prepacked sauce, but I added some more cheddar cheese. It tasted really good. I was kind of impressed at myself because I rarely cooked anything good. Even though it was prepacked sauce. I did good today. I got some work done on my final year project and emailed it to my supervisor. I planned to do some studying done for my finals next week. Barely going anywhere, because I suddenly decided to watch To The Moon playthrough by Cry. Oh man, I really missed the Cry from 5-6 years ago. He was cute. He's gone a long way now and he's grown so much. I also watched a little bit of a playthrough of Ib, just felt like it. I really missed these games. These were the best games then. ...

It has been pretty nice weather for the past couple of days. There has been some showers so it hasn't been hot. It nice because it's somewhat cool weather. No hotness, just coolness. I am back in my dorm. I have some work left to do for my final year project. Maybe two more tasks to do. And I need to study for my finals that's coming for about a week. In early January, I'll be back in my hometown. Yesterday, I felt very anxious and nervous for my final year project. A friend has texted me something that made me feel like I didn't know what I was doing. I'm sure she meant well, but it added to my already anxious temperament. I wasn't taking it very well. Then memories of past awkwardness and stupidity about over-sensitivity reappeared in my mind and I became pretty upset. I brooded over things and my over-sensitivity. It's hard to handle my emotions sometimes. It happens so quickly without me having any proper time to control or think about it. I fe...

In a few weeks, it will be Die's birthday. This end of the year has become a bit melancholic for me. It's reaching the end of a semester and my finals are coming up. I have been procrastinating some things but I promise I will get them done. I still have some time left. For the past few days, I had sat on my bed in the dark in my dorm room and I was thinking about a lot of things. I am already 23 years old, still struggling to finish my degree, still haven't traveled to Japan, still have no children, still afraid of dealing with the public. I still haven't gotten that home I wanted, still no job, still no money, still not having any kids. It was a pretty tough time for me. See, this blog is a way for me to express myself because I don't talk to people about things like this. Writing them is the only way I can get it out of my system. I don't expect people will read about this blog, or even care about it. I just needed somewhere to write and let it out. I...