A Slow Day
I am alone in my room right now. My room mate has gone out to study. I am sorry, perhaps I was distracting her with my habits of giggling while watching Youtube.
It's a rainy night again. It feels really nice. The air feels cool and chilly. Today, I made some macaroni and cheese with herbs. It's a prepacked sauce, but I added some more cheddar cheese. It tasted really good. I was kind of impressed at myself because I rarely cooked anything good. Even though it was prepacked sauce. I did good today.
I got some work done on my final year project and emailed it to my supervisor. I planned to do some studying done for my finals next week. Barely going anywhere, because I suddenly decided to watch To The Moon playthrough by Cry. Oh man, I really missed the Cry from 5-6 years ago. He was cute. He's gone a long way now and he's grown so much. I also watched a little bit of a playthrough of Ib, just felt like it. I really missed these games. These were the best games then. I love these RPG games so much.
That itch about painting has come up again. I also have 3 more books to read, which I borrowed from the library 2 weeks ago. On top of that, I have an itch to play music. Darn, I have all these itches that I need to scratch but I really can't do it. I have my priorities, my finals and final year project to complete.
When it comes to me, it makes me pretty sad not being able to do these things. I want to paint, read books, and play music. I might not be good at these things but I do it because I want to, because it's fun. I also have this idea of a story to write about.. Yeah, I have that too.
Let me tell you about this fantasy of mine. I always wanted a room of my own, and buy an acoustic guitar, and have a keyboard in the room. I need to buy a new bookcase for my books because my books are overflowing. I want to buy a Bluetooth Sony speaker which I can use to blast music in my room. I could use a simple desk for me to put and use my laptop. Maybe one day when I am working and have a little bit of money, I can buy an amplifier and an electric guitar. Then I can truly play Ghost of You. Then I can proceed to buy a bass guitar. Oh, I also wanted to buy a PS4, maybe PS2 and FFXV, FFX, Uncharted 4, and Kingdom Hearts 3. I'll get a small screen to plug that in and play it in my room. That would be very nice. Although, how can I fit everything in my room.. I mean, I think my rooms is going to be the smallest room ever. But I think I can imagine how it will be. I'll make it work with a few tricks and little bits of creativity. I don't need a lot of room, and I definitely won't need a slob of a room mate who never cleans up her stuff (my sister, sorry sis). Ya Allah, I hope I can have these things one day.
Writing all of this down, I think about what makes me truly happy. I have been wanting to chase after that masters degree for a long time. and maybe in 2 years I'll be able to do that. However, if I do go for my masters degree, can I fulfill this fantasy of mine in the near future? I think it means that I'll need to wait for another 2-3 years before I can get a stable job where I can afford this room fantasy of mine. So, that means that this can only happen in 4-6 years..... Not sure if I'm happy about that. I mean, I don't know how long I am going to live.
Sometimes I think about that. I always wanted to go for my masters degree,, but will I be able to endure another 2-3 years of studying like this? I am still struggling to hold on here, and I'm still studying for my bachelor's degree. I am going to make a lot of sacrifices which I don't know I want to make, or prepared to.
Right now, I'm listening to some really good post-rock indie music in the dark. I'll post it up on the next post. Now, I have to get back to watch some Cry.
It's a rainy night again. It feels really nice. The air feels cool and chilly. Today, I made some macaroni and cheese with herbs. It's a prepacked sauce, but I added some more cheddar cheese. It tasted really good. I was kind of impressed at myself because I rarely cooked anything good. Even though it was prepacked sauce. I did good today.
I got some work done on my final year project and emailed it to my supervisor. I planned to do some studying done for my finals next week. Barely going anywhere, because I suddenly decided to watch To The Moon playthrough by Cry. Oh man, I really missed the Cry from 5-6 years ago. He was cute. He's gone a long way now and he's grown so much. I also watched a little bit of a playthrough of Ib, just felt like it. I really missed these games. These were the best games then. I love these RPG games so much.
That itch about painting has come up again. I also have 3 more books to read, which I borrowed from the library 2 weeks ago. On top of that, I have an itch to play music. Darn, I have all these itches that I need to scratch but I really can't do it. I have my priorities, my finals and final year project to complete.
When it comes to me, it makes me pretty sad not being able to do these things. I want to paint, read books, and play music. I might not be good at these things but I do it because I want to, because it's fun. I also have this idea of a story to write about.. Yeah, I have that too.
Let me tell you about this fantasy of mine. I always wanted a room of my own, and buy an acoustic guitar, and have a keyboard in the room. I need to buy a new bookcase for my books because my books are overflowing. I want to buy a Bluetooth Sony speaker which I can use to blast music in my room. I could use a simple desk for me to put and use my laptop. Maybe one day when I am working and have a little bit of money, I can buy an amplifier and an electric guitar. Then I can truly play Ghost of You. Then I can proceed to buy a bass guitar. Oh, I also wanted to buy a PS4, maybe PS2 and FFXV, FFX, Uncharted 4, and Kingdom Hearts 3. I'll get a small screen to plug that in and play it in my room. That would be very nice. Although, how can I fit everything in my room.. I mean, I think my rooms is going to be the smallest room ever. But I think I can imagine how it will be. I'll make it work with a few tricks and little bits of creativity. I don't need a lot of room, and I definitely won't need a slob of a room mate who never cleans up her stuff (my sister, sorry sis). Ya Allah, I hope I can have these things one day.
Writing all of this down, I think about what makes me truly happy. I have been wanting to chase after that masters degree for a long time. and maybe in 2 years I'll be able to do that. However, if I do go for my masters degree, can I fulfill this fantasy of mine in the near future? I think it means that I'll need to wait for another 2-3 years before I can get a stable job where I can afford this room fantasy of mine. So, that means that this can only happen in 4-6 years..... Not sure if I'm happy about that. I mean, I don't know how long I am going to live.
Sometimes I think about that. I always wanted to go for my masters degree,, but will I be able to endure another 2-3 years of studying like this? I am still struggling to hold on here, and I'm still studying for my bachelor's degree. I am going to make a lot of sacrifices which I don't know I want to make, or prepared to.
Right now, I'm listening to some really good post-rock indie music in the dark. I'll post it up on the next post. Now, I have to get back to watch some Cry.
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