Dir en Grey
In a few weeks, it will be Die's birthday.
This end of the year has become a bit melancholic for me. It's reaching the end of a semester and my finals are coming up. I have been procrastinating some things but I promise I will get them done. I still have some time left.
For the past few days, I had sat on my bed in the dark in my dorm room and I was thinking about a lot of things. I am already 23 years old, still struggling to finish my degree, still haven't traveled to Japan, still have no children, still afraid of dealing with the public. I still haven't gotten that home I wanted, still no job, still no money, still not having any kids.
It was a pretty tough time for me. See, this blog is a way for me to express myself because I don't talk to people about things like this. Writing them is the only way I can get it out of my system. I don't expect people will read about this blog, or even care about it. I just needed somewhere to write and let it out.
I am a very emotional person. Why is that? No idea. Lots of people don't know, but I am not just the 'cry over a sad movie' type of emotional. Sometimes I consider myself made of feelings. I am an empath and an introvert. I prefer to be alone because people exhaust me. When I deal with them, I am spent and I can get sad for seeing something or how people are (a.k.a for no reason to be sad but I get sad anyway). I get vibes from people and I observe people a lot, and I have feelings for everything. So I am one of the type of girls that people don't like; the over-emotional.
I am also a music fan and I love rock music. I also believe that God has helped me a lot throughout my bouts of sadness. Most of the time, I am not sad because I am ungrateful or I am angry for the things that happen to me. I get sad because of people or because I haven't accomplished something I think I should have. I am certainly thankful for a lot of things. But I certainly could do better.
Dir en Grey is my favourite band of all time. I have many bands that I love, but I love Dir en Grey the most. I love their intensity, their uniqueness, their brand of product. I have never heard any music that is the same like Dir en Grey. Right now, music has been recycled and lots of bands sound the same. But lots of them have that uniqueness to them too. Dir en Grey has proven to me, again and again, their capacity and drive to keep creating something new and yet consistent to their own sound. Their sound feels matching to me and I relate to their intensity. They have grown to be divine in their craft and I never want them to leave. I believe in them so much.
This year, the band has faced some injuries and physical limitations. I am, of course, worried about the band. Kyo's voice seems past their prime state (which is, in my humble opinion, during Dum Spiro Spero). Kaoru has gotten a condition in his right hand and I noticed that his fingers looked different than when he usually plays guitar before his condition. I am glad he can still play guitar and perform for the band but I am scared for him and I want him to be safe and healthy. I hope the other members will keep being good and healthy and never have to deal with any injuries anymore.
Sometimes, I think about the time when all of this would change. This year, Bowie passed on. It made me think about how all these divine talent will just fade away because they are people. Plain, regular, humble people who are just living their life. One day, things can change just like that. Last time, Frankie and his crew got his by a bus and thank God they are all alive and safe. It is things like this that make me feel scared about the future and what could happen. What if all these beloved people would be gone? It's unavoidable, it's sure to happen. When I think about that, I get sad again. I can't even think of being in a world without them. These bands and their music means the world to me. They have helped me and I love them for sharing their talent and art with me. Without them, I would be a different person and I wouldn't trade that for anything. I love these artists even if they don't know me. I think about them, I care about them. If they were gone, I couldn't even think about it because my brain just wouldn't register that scenario. I can't even think about it.
These people I love, they are getting older. Our lives are changing. Dir en Grey members are getting into their 40s. They are going to be old men soon and sometimes I just wish they could stay young like they are now. Like, let them be in their prime state forever. But it doesn't work that way because they are human just like me. One day, I will grow old too. I'll have to watch out over my head banging so that it doesn't get all intense.
I have some complaints about the current music industry that we see on TV and on the radio. Pop music is becoming so dominant nowadays and I agree with Corey Taylor, it is 'insulting'. You see, most of these pop stars don't even write their own songs. They get producers to write it for them and sure, I like it how they have talent to sing (because I can't sing) but I think writing your own songs and conveying feelings to them would mean a lot more than just singing over the lyrics that you probably didn't write and didn't relate to. Just the other day, a pop group won the rock band category and I still struggle with that. I am of the opinion that pop is definitely not for me. I might appreciate all kinds of music but shallow music and shallow singing just doesn't do it for me. And by shallow music and shallow singing, I mean singing without feelings, without relating, without understanding, without intensity, without pulse, without emotions, without truth. If you are singing just because you can sing and have techniques to make your voice sound good, no honey, that it shallow singing to me. I'm sorry. It doesn't fill me up.
With metal music, rock, punk, hardcore, sometimes indie rock, I feel extremely more. They fulfill me and I am satiated. If they can mean what they sing, like what Dir en Grey does, I can feel it a lot more. I can feel it better. And sometimes, that's exactly what I need.
To finish off this post, I would like to say that music helped me a lot and in those critical days, Dir en Grey resonates with me so much. It's a band that fits with me well. I am lucky to have that in my life and I am thankful that God has given me this opportunity to experience such talent and art.
This end of the year has become a bit melancholic for me. It's reaching the end of a semester and my finals are coming up. I have been procrastinating some things but I promise I will get them done. I still have some time left.
For the past few days, I had sat on my bed in the dark in my dorm room and I was thinking about a lot of things. I am already 23 years old, still struggling to finish my degree, still haven't traveled to Japan, still have no children, still afraid of dealing with the public. I still haven't gotten that home I wanted, still no job, still no money, still not having any kids.
It was a pretty tough time for me. See, this blog is a way for me to express myself because I don't talk to people about things like this. Writing them is the only way I can get it out of my system. I don't expect people will read about this blog, or even care about it. I just needed somewhere to write and let it out.
I am a very emotional person. Why is that? No idea. Lots of people don't know, but I am not just the 'cry over a sad movie' type of emotional. Sometimes I consider myself made of feelings. I am an empath and an introvert. I prefer to be alone because people exhaust me. When I deal with them, I am spent and I can get sad for seeing something or how people are (a.k.a for no reason to be sad but I get sad anyway). I get vibes from people and I observe people a lot, and I have feelings for everything. So I am one of the type of girls that people don't like; the over-emotional.
I am also a music fan and I love rock music. I also believe that God has helped me a lot throughout my bouts of sadness. Most of the time, I am not sad because I am ungrateful or I am angry for the things that happen to me. I get sad because of people or because I haven't accomplished something I think I should have. I am certainly thankful for a lot of things. But I certainly could do better.
Dir en Grey is my favourite band of all time. I have many bands that I love, but I love Dir en Grey the most. I love their intensity, their uniqueness, their brand of product. I have never heard any music that is the same like Dir en Grey. Right now, music has been recycled and lots of bands sound the same. But lots of them have that uniqueness to them too. Dir en Grey has proven to me, again and again, their capacity and drive to keep creating something new and yet consistent to their own sound. Their sound feels matching to me and I relate to their intensity. They have grown to be divine in their craft and I never want them to leave. I believe in them so much.
This year, the band has faced some injuries and physical limitations. I am, of course, worried about the band. Kyo's voice seems past their prime state (which is, in my humble opinion, during Dum Spiro Spero). Kaoru has gotten a condition in his right hand and I noticed that his fingers looked different than when he usually plays guitar before his condition. I am glad he can still play guitar and perform for the band but I am scared for him and I want him to be safe and healthy. I hope the other members will keep being good and healthy and never have to deal with any injuries anymore.
Sometimes, I think about the time when all of this would change. This year, Bowie passed on. It made me think about how all these divine talent will just fade away because they are people. Plain, regular, humble people who are just living their life. One day, things can change just like that. Last time, Frankie and his crew got his by a bus and thank God they are all alive and safe. It is things like this that make me feel scared about the future and what could happen. What if all these beloved people would be gone? It's unavoidable, it's sure to happen. When I think about that, I get sad again. I can't even think of being in a world without them. These bands and their music means the world to me. They have helped me and I love them for sharing their talent and art with me. Without them, I would be a different person and I wouldn't trade that for anything. I love these artists even if they don't know me. I think about them, I care about them. If they were gone, I couldn't even think about it because my brain just wouldn't register that scenario. I can't even think about it.
These people I love, they are getting older. Our lives are changing. Dir en Grey members are getting into their 40s. They are going to be old men soon and sometimes I just wish they could stay young like they are now. Like, let them be in their prime state forever. But it doesn't work that way because they are human just like me. One day, I will grow old too. I'll have to watch out over my head banging so that it doesn't get all intense.
I have some complaints about the current music industry that we see on TV and on the radio. Pop music is becoming so dominant nowadays and I agree with Corey Taylor, it is 'insulting'. You see, most of these pop stars don't even write their own songs. They get producers to write it for them and sure, I like it how they have talent to sing (because I can't sing) but I think writing your own songs and conveying feelings to them would mean a lot more than just singing over the lyrics that you probably didn't write and didn't relate to. Just the other day, a pop group won the rock band category and I still struggle with that. I am of the opinion that pop is definitely not for me. I might appreciate all kinds of music but shallow music and shallow singing just doesn't do it for me. And by shallow music and shallow singing, I mean singing without feelings, without relating, without understanding, without intensity, without pulse, without emotions, without truth. If you are singing just because you can sing and have techniques to make your voice sound good, no honey, that it shallow singing to me. I'm sorry. It doesn't fill me up.
With metal music, rock, punk, hardcore, sometimes indie rock, I feel extremely more. They fulfill me and I am satiated. If they can mean what they sing, like what Dir en Grey does, I can feel it a lot more. I can feel it better. And sometimes, that's exactly what I need.
To finish off this post, I would like to say that music helped me a lot and in those critical days, Dir en Grey resonates with me so much. It's a band that fits with me well. I am lucky to have that in my life and I am thankful that God has given me this opportunity to experience such talent and art.
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