Tearful

It's a tearful kind of night tonight.

I've been spending the day playing computer games and watching Dir en Grey videos. Now I've got the "konpeki no umi".

Then made a playlist of my melancholic songs that would suit my mood right now. Somehow got Zakuro into the list, played it, gave up in the first 10 seconds. No, I'm not ready for that. Got Jealous-reverse- and Kasumi, and somehow it's making me sadder.

I didn't cry, but my eyes got watery. My heart feels weak and tired. I tried my best today, as well as these last couple of days. Maybe I should release it all now.

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