My Choice

i received a phone call about 3 days ago, on Saturday, telling me that i was to go to an interview. i wasn't really sure what interview it was, but the lady said that she was giving me an opportunity to go to university and further my studies. she said it was a UK-based program and told me to go to this mara office on the 27th. i was excited at first, i got a chance to further my studies and such. i even practiced and prepared answers. so i went there at 11 a.m. like she informed me, and in the end it wasn't an interview at all. she was actually persuading me, or promoting, to go to this private university (Linton University). the facilities and conditions were good, and i would even receive this 90% loan or something, like the university will give me the loan to study there.

i felt a bit discouraged, since it was a private university. she didn't give me any other options to choose another university, and besides, the university did not offer the course that i planned to take. see, she asked me about the course that i wanted to apply for and i told her. she said that in the end i'll be a teacher, which i already foresee, so it was not a problem for me. then i asked about taking psychology, and she said the market isn't really vast and it is stigmatized whatnot... i'm like what the hell, man... well, she advised me with my kind of SPM result, i shouldn't be wasting my intelligence on something like English and literature... it's my future... at least that's how i interpreted her words...

so i'm back at this situation again. 'you should take something that would land you a job right away'. 'in today's economy, you have to take something that is in demand'. i'm tired listening to these sentences. i'm sorry if i'm stubborn but i don't want to do something that i don't want to. i'm a girl, so anyhow i'm gonna be a housewife sooner or later. i want to be one. i don't need something that would get me a job right away. i don't want to choose something that i'd hate to do and regret it in the end. at least i want to do what i love and want to do, so that even if i do regret it, i won't regret it so much than if i didn't do it. if you get what i mean.. you know? i mean, couldn't you people just tell me that it's okay to follow my dreams?
well i'm just saying....

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