Be Happy. Be Confident.
I have to be honest, the past few days have been gloomy for me. I don't really how it came to such a state, but it was rather depressing. I wasn't being productive too. And the new patch for TS3 came and I accidentally updated my game, causing it to lag most of the time because of the incompatible custom content, I assume. So I wasn't really happy even though I was a couple of days before.
Well after some thinking and a reality check I've decided that things cannot go on this way. Moping about all day won't do me any good. If I'm not going to do anything creative or productive, might as well get on-line and find some inspiration, or read some books. Fairy tales will do nicely, I think. So now I feel much better. I don't know if what I felt was depression, but it was rather a low point. The feeling... I can't really describe it.
My friends and I had plans to go out this week and I hope everything will turn out just fine. I want to see them all. I want to go out and face the world, once in a while. I haven't been out for days. I want to dress up and look at cute boys. Aw man, that will be fun.
Come to think of it, perhaps one of the reason for my gloomy days were the feeling of social deprivation. I don't know if that's a liable term but I'll use it. I mean, I haven't seen my friends in weeks, months. I don't really interact with people in social networking sites. I realized that I'm turning socially-awkward or something like that because I get nervous or can't listen to what people are saying properly. And the rest... I don't know what to say.
So I'll try to be happy and be confident. Don't care about what people are saying. Don't care if other people around me are more attractive. I'll be attractive myself. I should be happy because I'm alive. I should be confident. I'll dress up real cute and be confident with myself. It shouldn't be too hard because I've been like this before. I'll be happy and I'll be confident.
Now I think I'll just get a bag of chips and a book and brew some hot green tea. That'll be real nice.
Well after some thinking and a reality check I've decided that things cannot go on this way. Moping about all day won't do me any good. If I'm not going to do anything creative or productive, might as well get on-line and find some inspiration, or read some books. Fairy tales will do nicely, I think. So now I feel much better. I don't know if what I felt was depression, but it was rather a low point. The feeling... I can't really describe it.
My friends and I had plans to go out this week and I hope everything will turn out just fine. I want to see them all. I want to go out and face the world, once in a while. I haven't been out for days. I want to dress up and look at cute boys. Aw man, that will be fun.
Come to think of it, perhaps one of the reason for my gloomy days were the feeling of social deprivation. I don't know if that's a liable term but I'll use it. I mean, I haven't seen my friends in weeks, months. I don't really interact with people in social networking sites. I realized that I'm turning socially-awkward or something like that because I get nervous or can't listen to what people are saying properly. And the rest... I don't know what to say.
So I'll try to be happy and be confident. Don't care about what people are saying. Don't care if other people around me are more attractive. I'll be attractive myself. I should be happy because I'm alive. I should be confident. I'll dress up real cute and be confident with myself. It shouldn't be too hard because I've been like this before. I'll be happy and I'll be confident.
Now I think I'll just get a bag of chips and a book and brew some hot green tea. That'll be real nice.
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