Hello and Sadness
Hi. It's been a great while.
I'm a university student now. I decided to take on the challenge and see how it goes. I suppose, right now, is another turning point in my life. It is time to make another major life-changing decision. From all my posts, this is the point in life that I despise enormously. All the risks, consequences, the unknown - all of them are nightmares to me.
But I post today not because of some depressing feeling again, it is about something else. I'll write about it here.
You see, I have entered a recreational club in my university residential college. It is called 'Silat Tari'. It is like the martial arts, but what we do is more focused to performances. Today, or rather, yesterday night (since it's already past 12 midnight), was our last practice for this semester. I have to say, I feel rather melancholy. There is this certain loneliness when I think about the days to come when I no longer have practice at nights. I have come to love coming to practice. I like to make the moves correctly, and as prettily as I can manage. I like practising at night. I love the energy that we have. And I have met so many people. I will miss all of that from now on.
My housemates are lovely people. My roommate especially is a very helpful and tolerant person. She helps me a lot and I appreciate her very much. I am fortunate to have such a wonderful roommate. However, there are still some who are somewhat slobs. And I despise those who cannot clean after themselves. I hate them deep within my guts.
But I feel comfortable here. The position that I am right now is quite nice, except the life-changing decision that I have to make. This is what Danny Choo says as the 'comfort zone'. There is a point in everyone's lives where we have achieve the balance, security, and stability that we all strive for in life, such as monthly income, occupations, comfort... We humans strive for this 'comfort zone' where everything goes on smoothly, and we are seldom able to break away from it, because it is our nature to want to maintain such balance in our lives. Balance is key to everything. Well, most things. I think I am in that position right now. Everything goes rather smoothly although not excellently as I would have hoped for. I did pray to God to let everything goes well for me. But now is the chance for me to challenge that balance, time for me to decide on my future once more. What shall I do to help myself this time? This decision-making tires me out. I hope I can find the answers soon, for I know I am not able to make that decision alone without help and advice from others. Tomorrow afternoon, I will meet with Dr. Siti to help me evaluate and analyse my options to make the best decision fitting to my interests and wants. Truth be told, I plan something rather unordinary, but not impossible. Therefore, I hope everyone else would help and cheer me on.
I guess that is all for today,I'll see you later, self.
And there are lots more stories to be told. Maybe one day I'll write about them over here.
I'm a university student now. I decided to take on the challenge and see how it goes. I suppose, right now, is another turning point in my life. It is time to make another major life-changing decision. From all my posts, this is the point in life that I despise enormously. All the risks, consequences, the unknown - all of them are nightmares to me.
But I post today not because of some depressing feeling again, it is about something else. I'll write about it here.
You see, I have entered a recreational club in my university residential college. It is called 'Silat Tari'. It is like the martial arts, but what we do is more focused to performances. Today, or rather, yesterday night (since it's already past 12 midnight), was our last practice for this semester. I have to say, I feel rather melancholy. There is this certain loneliness when I think about the days to come when I no longer have practice at nights. I have come to love coming to practice. I like to make the moves correctly, and as prettily as I can manage. I like practising at night. I love the energy that we have. And I have met so many people. I will miss all of that from now on.
My housemates are lovely people. My roommate especially is a very helpful and tolerant person. She helps me a lot and I appreciate her very much. I am fortunate to have such a wonderful roommate. However, there are still some who are somewhat slobs. And I despise those who cannot clean after themselves. I hate them deep within my guts.
But I feel comfortable here. The position that I am right now is quite nice, except the life-changing decision that I have to make. This is what Danny Choo says as the 'comfort zone'. There is a point in everyone's lives where we have achieve the balance, security, and stability that we all strive for in life, such as monthly income, occupations, comfort... We humans strive for this 'comfort zone' where everything goes on smoothly, and we are seldom able to break away from it, because it is our nature to want to maintain such balance in our lives. Balance is key to everything. Well, most things. I think I am in that position right now. Everything goes rather smoothly although not excellently as I would have hoped for. I did pray to God to let everything goes well for me. But now is the chance for me to challenge that balance, time for me to decide on my future once more. What shall I do to help myself this time? This decision-making tires me out. I hope I can find the answers soon, for I know I am not able to make that decision alone without help and advice from others. Tomorrow afternoon, I will meet with Dr. Siti to help me evaluate and analyse my options to make the best decision fitting to my interests and wants. Truth be told, I plan something rather unordinary, but not impossible. Therefore, I hope everyone else would help and cheer me on.
I guess that is all for today,I'll see you later, self.
And there are lots more stories to be told. Maybe one day I'll write about them over here.
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