November. And It's Raining

I'd like to say a Happy Ieroween because yesterday was Frankie's birthday.

I'm going to watch the movie Halloween and listen to songs.

At this time, I'm supposed to do my final year project and do some assignments. But I am procrastinating.

I am really the epitome of those negative hormonal women. I do stuff based on my emotions. I remember things based on my emotions.

Sometimes I think like I am held captive by my emotions. They are just that strong. I have a significant degree of willpower (I promise). And sometimes, like today, I surrender and do what my emotions tell me.

You know that comic art that some people made, about what the brain (or mind) wants us to do but then the heart wants us to do something else? Well, I have not only the brain and the heart, I have the emotions to try make me do things differently too. It's completely separate from the brain and heart for me.

The weather is also pretty darn nice tonight. Pretty cold, much more on the colder side but it feels nice. the Nice cold. Last summer it was so hot even at night, I was convinced there was a heatwave in my room.

It's chill weather tonight and I feel like chilling. My feelings and emotions pretty much dictate everything I do.

I am not celebrating Halloween. I am celebrating Frankie's birthday. #Ieroween

This post is pretty much about saying that I am abandoning all my scholarly responsibilities because I don't feel like it. Very irresponsible. Yes, I know. Very immature and negative-like. I probably need some sort of scholarly exorcism here because a spirit of the "abandon-everything-you-don't-want-to-do" ghost came to possess me and haunt me for the rest of the semester.

Hopefully not. Happy Ieroween.

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