I am Thankful

I would like to write about how I passed my well-dreaded final exam. Thank God a million times over. I was so worried about it, even pessimistic about it. Then a friend instilled some new faith and courage to me, and when I went to see the results I went feeling somewhat neutral but with faith at the same time. As I walked up the steps to the teacher's office, I felt I couldn't move my legs, but I did, and walked right into the office. The teacher asked about how I was feeling, and I couldn't answer him, because suddenly there was this ball of nerves stuck in my throat. Truthfully, I felt rather nervous and I trusted everything to God and qada' and qadar. Alhamdulillah, all praises to God, I passed with 4 principles. This might not be such a good result, but it was good enough for me, considering how I never passed my math and chemistry during school. It was truly a miracle. I felt this kind of happiness, the kind where you love everybody in this world and you forgive them for every wrong-doing that they had done. That kind of liberation. I couldn't have done it without all the prayers and wishes from my parents and friends.

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