A good night's Sleep can make you Heal

There are no classes today. I'm opting to stay inside all day.

I was pretty wrecked last time. I felt like the world was ignoring me and I felt helpless. I couldn't rely on anyone but myself and God. I realized that I couldn't depend on people because they don't really care about you. They won't help you no matter what because they have their own lives. They won't realize that you're drowning and they won't come save you because it would ruin their schedule or they had better things to do that save you. It's really like that.

But yesterday, I had some people helping me. And I'm thankful for that. I was bad because I was late, and I felt so awful because of it. I hate inconveniencing people, and if I do, it effects me more than it should. I'm talking about "I should be punished for this" kind of thinking. Even though it's kind of a small thing. I think, if I took my own life because of something like that, it would surely be justified in my head, because it can effect me so much. But to other people, they are going to think that it was a small thing and very stupid to mull over to that extent. I know that. I realize that. But people don't realize about what I think and feel about it, do they?

After crying, and spending some time watching videos, I got myself to relax and took a cold shower. It was a hot night yesterday. I got to bed early and got up early. I took  shower, did laundry and had breakfast. I think my final year project is making progress. I have tons of stuff to do this week, if I'm to complete it on time. After a good night's sleep, I'm feeling much better. It's true what they say, sleep can make it go away, even for a little bit.

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