Dear Chester.

This morning I have received one of the saddest news.

On the 20th of July, Chester Bennington was found hanging.

Can words ever give justice to how I feel? And many other people all over the world?

The other day, it was Chris Cornell. And now Chester. It made me think that we don't know anything about anything at all. It scares me to think that how many people more would we hear news of that succumbed to this disease? I don't even know if I can take any more news similar to this.

God, I'm in such a tangled state of mind. I don't even know how to express my grief properly. Who do I talk to? It's so vexing to think about how Chester have fought and struggled all these years and  this happened. I feel sad for him, for his family, for the band, for other people who have been influenced by Chester. The question of why and what if have been lingering for a while, but I decided that sometimes I don't need to know because sometimes, I myself don't want people to know. It's devastating, and I feel so much misery.

I guess all I can say, if I could ever say anything, is that,

We love you, Chester. We have always loved you, for always. I am sorry you have felt like you did, and you decided to leave. Thank you for everything that you have given to us, you creativity, your humbleness, your great self, and many more. You were a gift to us, and a beautiful individual. I don't know if saying all this would matter to you anymore, now that you can never see this, or know this. But I love you, and we all love you.

God, help us all.


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